Little man

I fall in love with CJ with each picture, at all ages, of him. This one melts my heart. He is the same... just a little man. He still looked exactly like this. My little man.

engagement pictures..

I look at pictures. I am so grateful we have so many. These I found again.. and fell in love again.. I remember taking these. The whole time we were just laughing because we didn't know what to do. We were told to just be ourselves and he took pictures "in the moment". We were always in our own world together... I love him.

My Dancing CJ

I watch this OVER and OVER and OVER again! One thing that I was always SO PROUD and would brag about to people I met, is that my CJ was a good dancer. I think it is the most attractive thing, well not the most, but I love it with my WHOLE HEART <3

CJ and I would always have dance parties... basically I would watch him, while I two stepped. When we were dating we would just go dancing, just the two of us, all the time. Even when we were married, we went to vegas and danced at the clubs. We would just be in our own world.. but I have such EYES for my CJ... He would laugh at my two step. The best is when I would come come and I would find CJ in complete sweat in front of the mirror with his Dr. Dre Beats on... "workin it out" I would just stand and watch until he noticed I was there. He would be so happy to show me this new move me made up or that he found on youtube, with the biggest smile, and give me a sweaty hug. Every day I knew when he would come home because I could hear his music on speaker... walking in with his music and dancing until he gave me the biggest kiss and it would turn into a dance party in the kitchen. Just the two of us... Just what I love most, US!

Some days are harder than others... I just miss him, I miss being a nerd with him, I miss being truly happy with him by my side.

Lance Hewitt

The other day I got a text message from a friend telling me he went to visit Lance, a man from our ward in Salt Lake. He took a picture of him next to a picture of CJ he had hanging in his apartment.

He said "man, I really miss CJ. You know I really prayed that CJ could be there with me the day I was baptized. He was so influential on me and I really thought I felt him there!"

When I saw the picture and read the text, tears of pure love ran down my face. I LOVE my CJ and how much he loved the gospel. How his life here impacted so many people... and it still does. I know that CJ was with Lance on the day he was baptized. He always told me how much he truly loved Lance, and what a great man he is.

Cody McAllister

I read your most recent post and I felt the heart strings pull me in this direction. I will always remember the Legend in the England leeds mission known as elder Rhineer.

I remember a story!!!, I went on splits with him once as he was the Assistant to the President and I had found this REALLY REALLY OLD ANCIENT Golf club weeks before. Like I think it was made of wood or something. Well once he laid eyes on it I could swear he was in love and I didn't even know he played golf. I think he held it in his hands every minute we were in the flat. I gave to him because I knew he loved it about a million times more than I did. I remember sleeping well that night because he worked me harder than I had ever done my entire mission.